beyond

"beyond".
i say that a lot these days. and if you've had a conversation with me recently you probably know that. but since i have the majority of my conversations with myself these days perhaps you haven't.

i usually use it before an adjective to make the declarative statement stronger.

"Ma, you are beyond ridiculous."
"This job is beyond boring."
"Daniele (my sister), your children are beyond outrageous."

it also works in the positive.

"Granny, this dinner is beyond delicious."
"Oh my gosh, you look beyond amazing. Beyond!"

while i was at the beyond boring job today i was thinking about how i would describe my life in one of these statements. and i came up with this:

"My life is beyond...recognition."

isn't that something? everyday i get up before sunrise and go to work. and i file. and i file. and i file a bit more. i have approximately four cups of coffee and take what seems like twice as many bathroom breaks. then i leave. and i maybe run an errand after work. and then i come home. eat a little something (or a lot of something if i'm being truly honest). and i maybe can stay awake long enough to talk to a friend on the phone, maybe i can't. and then i go to bed.

and the next day is the exact same.

and this i don't recognize. this is not me.